Postby Lavender » Fri Mar 29, 2019 3:53 am
Poem written by me discribes my struggle with depression.
Asleep
A long slumber did I take, and away my mind did go down paths I did not know.
Lost myself in this snare, unable to tell those that care.
Though outstretched hands they tried to lead, I wandered away not taking heed.
Not knowing how to find myself, clung to the good memories I knew.
The happiest time in my life, made me smile and act real nice...
But then that smile became my fracade, the life I lived became a fraud...
Because trapped writhing inside my own mind, not knowing then those that tried...
To rescue me from my own hell, but were unable to reach my dwelling there...
They moved on to lives their own, that perhaps I should just be let alone.
Finally, from the deepest depths I did crawl, to be told just how far I did fall.
On a journey I'd never meant to make.
But now finally awake!
Waking to find what I lost, makes me wonder if waking was worth the cost?
Now a new path I must tread, to remember who I want to be, and see where this new life will lead me.
To precious memories I still cling, of life before I fell away. Wishing now that somehow I could have stayed.
But knowing that wish is useless anyway.
For even in the rifters light, the clouds stay a shade of gray, shadowing over my every day.
Still learning to live again after I fell, questioning if I can even tell...
If the path I wanted is still there... Thanks to that life of living hell.
~this is mostly RL but as it did affect all my girls. Tells their paths as well.
Lavender
Kindness is more important than wisdom, and the recognition of this
is the beginning of wisdom. –Theodore Issac Rubin.
It takes courage to be kind. - Maya Angelou.